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All of a sudden I can feel the blood start to bubble up in the back of my head and I am I feeling a little bit stressed. I don't know why. I think there isn't anything major bothering me, only stupid things but they are all adding up.

I'm still really annoyed that my money from the Inland Revenue hasn't arrived yet. I am particularly narked because I got the cheque finally, but seeing as it was already 2 weeks late, and at their suggestion, I cancelled it so it could be BACS'd safely. Bastards. So in the meantime things are coming out of my account and I am now over my overdraft, and I suspect have a 30 pound charge winging its way to me. I don't know why I am annoyed with myself exactly, I think it is because I thought I was over stupid money things, but I know there is no point in stressing about things but still I do. I'm just annoyed at myself really, feels like I have taken one step forward and two steps back. it wouldn't be so bad if I thought I could spare it but ah well. No point in stressing.

Everything will be okay though, I know it will. Things for Joshua will change and I think that'll he'll find something better that agrees with him.

I am looking forward to Ria and Anthony coming though thats cool. Work is cool. Dom is away for a while so I think I am holding the fort. This could prove a disaster but my probation is up in a month so it had better not!

I don't know why, but I am also really annoyed with Simon and Mioiki. I'm sick of people making promises and not ever keeping them. I know Ekika might be ill (which is fair enough as this Norwalk thing is seriously doing the rounds) but Mioiki has played that card so many times, I have lost sympathy for it all. Then all this stuff about Joshua's birthday present, and we haven't seem them in ages, but if I am starting to think that they didn't bother, which wouldn't be an issue if Mioiki hadn't made such a fuss about it.

I've barely been up 2 hours and all of a sudden I have put myself in a foul mood. What a tit.

Edited to add, also something wierd happened to me this morning and I prompted couldn't work out if I was dreaming or actually dying. I think it was neither after I spoke to Ria so panic over for now!